PREGGO

I'm PREGNANT!!!!

The Princess is THREE!!!

WOW!!! She is three! A whole day of partying with her friends and family and then Uncle Shawn surprises her with giant princesses. Ainzley and Brijet were excited and loved watching him put the pink one together.

Uncle Shawn didnt mind the loss of sleep and all that hard work to make these once he saw those gorgeous smiles. Ainzley got her "cinderelli" birthday party , FINALLY. She has only been waiting since May when sister got a princess birthday party.

My neices are growing up, when asked if they would just stay this age forever they laughed at me and told me "NO".

Apologies on the side

I'm so tired of apologies on the side

She says what she wants and does what she will

And as I'm hurt walking away

You come and give me an apology on the side

Shes just in a bad mood you say

Her meds are changing and the mood is swinging

And your sorry she acts that way

You don't stand up and tell her calm down

You stand there and take it

And let her treat me to her liking

And all I get is an apology on the side

It's not fair for me to fight

For the father I desperately need

It's not fair that you don't care

And all you care to do is give

An apology on the side

Snapshot Sunday ~ ~ ~ Bing

This week was national clown week so Bing got to jump into clowning for the first time. This pic is of Bing with her older brother Sunny, he let her help with some of his magic stuff. You should see his magic it is wonderful. I hope I get to learn a lot from him.

We were acknowledged in Raymore for national clown week. This is the mayor giving us a decleration for it after a show we did. We had so much fun and the kids enjoyed seeing our show. We even made it to the Raymore website. They loved us. Even the mayor smiled.

I have got to get me one of these chairs, it was soooooo big. My littles neices and nephew wanted a pic with the best clown ever!!!!! We had such a blast with the kids at the Raymore party in the park. The kids loved us once again.

A group shot with a few kids thrown in there. Notice my A-bear in my arms, she is never far from her FAVORITE aunt.


OH! I love my friend Tater's car. She is an amazing clown and was very helpful in helping me get my costume together. It is a work in progress, but hopefully by clown school (which is in Feb) I will have a good costume complete just for me. My neice loved the ride in the clown car. Ainzley and Brijet really enjoyed watching my put my costume on and they watched intently as I put my makeup on. They were so intrigued and loved every minute of the getting ready for and the party in the park.

Bing had a great time performing and being able to make children laugh. There are so many more pictures and smiles to be seen. I cannot wait to learn more and do more shows. Of course Sunny will show me everything I need to know, since he is so AMAZING!!!

SummaTime

Since I havent been on much lately I thought I would write about my summer. I have had a blast going to the pool and hanging out with the kiddos. I love spending the night at my sisters house and playing with the kids. We take them to the pool and paint our nails and my sissie and I even get some alone time late at night when all the kids are in bed.

I have been on vacation this past week and have really enjoyed it so far. It has been nice to just relax and be able to anything and everything. We had the kids over for a sleepover, went to the pool, dressed as a clown and did three shows, played at the pool, chalked on the sidewalk, layed out at the pool, read some books, spend some time at the pool, went to a nightclub for a friends bday party, hung out at the pool and just enjoyed husband wife time. Did I mention i got to go to the pool a lot?

I will post pics of the clown shows as soon as I get all the pics uploaded and from other clowns at the shows. We even made it on the Raymores website for our show at the day care center. I really enjoyed clowning for the first time.

Alisa Maier

What is going through her mind as she is in a place she does not know? How is she dealing with a stranger in control of her? What is her mother going through? Is she asking the man to take her home? What is he doing to her?

This 4 year old was taken from her front yard by a stranger. She has been missing for a little more than 24 hours now. Where could she be? Who has her? She was just playing outside with her older brother and some guy decided he wanted her.

This makes me wanna scream and cry at GOD. How does he sit there and let this happen? How can he let this guy keep this little girl and not bring her home to her mommy? How can he let her be hurt and hear her cry?

This little girl was taken from Louisianna Missouri, right next to the Missippi river. Could he have already dumped her in the river? What are his plans for her? Why did the neighbors let the dark car circle the neighborhood for hours before he took her?

Why did GOD allow this to happen? I know we have free will and he decided not to interfere, but I cant help to question this? GRRRR!!! This makes me wanna cry. I cant help but to think of Brijet and what she would do. I would die if this were my little girl or one of my neices. I can do nothing but continue to pray.

So I am hoping everyone is praying for this little girl to be brought home safe and sound.

A Look Inside My OCD Head

I was driving to work last night and my brain was once again whirling like a tornado like it often does. I started to go into panic mode like normal and my breathing started to get faster and faster. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it would pop out of my chest. This is a normal thing for me. For whatever reason I have these "daymares" and I DONT like them.

I start to think about stupid things, like someone I love being in a car crash and the whole scenerio playing out in my head. I even cry like it is real. Or the whole scenerio plays out of me being raped and beaten, my heart beats really fast, I get really mad, I start breathing really fast and I can't make myself believe its not real. It really feels like it just happened before I started for work. I Have no idea why these thoughts happen and I feel that when they do I have to start praying. I have to pray that the one thing I was just thinking about wont happen to the one person that was in involved. I have to pray for all the loved ones I love and if I miss one then something will happen to them.

Sometimes I hate being in the car alone, it gives my brain time to create the tornado. I hate the tornado. It is always something. It is always horrible. It is always so REAL. Sometimes I think I get so caught up in the tornado in my head that I forget where I am. It is weird its like Im driving yet Im not really there.

ANyway there is a glimpse into my crazy whirlwind head.