Well I am just running through this pregnancy. I really thought it would go so much slower, but I guess through the stress of everything going on I am just not paying attention anymore.
Mom made it home finally, she is on a truckload full of medication and I need to get up to see her so that I can go over everything with her and get a medication list for medical personel.
Little brother is still in need of prayers, although I finally got to talk to him the other day and he sounded good. I miss him. I never thought I would actually say that.
Hubby and I had a date night last night, we went to our church for a marriage class (which we loved) and then out to eat at Zios. It was nice to go to the class, I met some other SAHM and found a group at the church for mommies. I cant wait to get to know some more ladies in this area.
In just over a week I will finally know the gender of my baby. I am so excited and cannot wait to go shopping. I will post as soon as I find out.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Im 6 Months!!!
I am finally 6 months along. I am so excited. I cannot wait to find out what I am having at the end of this month. I am so excited. In May I will have my little one in my arms and holding him/her tight. I am praying everything goes well and the baby is healthy.
I had a dream that I had a buy by c section at 26 weeks and he was 10 pounds with a head full of dark hair. I must have cried a lot in my dream bcuz I woke up sobbing. It was a wierd dream.
My mom is still in the hospital trying to get rid of her pneumonia and now she has diabetes and an irregular heartbeat. I am praying that she gets out soon and that she will be okay. I will have to make sure she stays on top of all her meds now.
My little brother is still going through his struggles and needs lots of prayer. I wish he didn't have to go through anything and I want so bad to make all things better for him. But this is all on him and he needs to find a way out. UGH!!!
So I am going to try to focus on my baby and my health and keep this little guy in there as long as possible. I am shooting for going over and delivering later than the 6th so that I can maybe finish up my semester. We will see.
I had a dream that I had a buy by c section at 26 weeks and he was 10 pounds with a head full of dark hair. I must have cried a lot in my dream bcuz I woke up sobbing. It was a wierd dream.
My mom is still in the hospital trying to get rid of her pneumonia and now she has diabetes and an irregular heartbeat. I am praying that she gets out soon and that she will be okay. I will have to make sure she stays on top of all her meds now.
My little brother is still going through his struggles and needs lots of prayer. I wish he didn't have to go through anything and I want so bad to make all things better for him. But this is all on him and he needs to find a way out. UGH!!!
So I am going to try to focus on my baby and my health and keep this little guy in there as long as possible. I am shooting for going over and delivering later than the 6th so that I can maybe finish up my semester. We will see.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
UPDATE
My party is coming pretty quick and I am so excited to find out the gender of my baby. I cannot wait any longer it needs to hurry up and get here. I love that I have that to look forward to. I am so glad we chose to do it this way. Shawn is very happy that he knows and that he gets to do this little party for me and our family and friends. I hope it all goes well and the party is a success for all.
Mom is in the hospital with bilateral pnuemonia. I hope she gets out by the weekend, but we will see if she gets any better. I am stressed for her because I know she is not making any money while she is in the hospital. I know is sucks for her, but it was the only way to make her better.
My little brother still has major issues he is dealing with. I am heartbroken and lost over his problems and want so bad to take him away from it all. I wish I would've done better for him and gave him a better life. I feel like this is my fault. Like I screwed up my life a ton and made some bad decisions and didnt get the chance to show him how to live a better life. Prayers are the only thing that can help him now.
My other little brother has supposedly gotten a girl knocked up, but noone really knows if she is really pregnant since she claimed to get pregnant after knowing my brother for a week. REALLY??? I think the whole situation is stupid and both children need to be knocked upside the head. He is now living with her and her parents and not going to school. GREAT!
The other brother is ok. He is slowly reaising his kid with his baby mama and living off my dad. I feel bad for my daddy. He is working his butt off just to pay for his wife that doesnt work and he has to pay for my brother baby mama and baby. What kind of life is that?
I want to be like supergirl and save the world. I will start with my family and get them out of all the sticky situations they are in. I just want better for the people I love and cant stand the fact that I cant change anything for any of them.
My husbands GMA is in the nursing home and will not be able to get out. She needs help living and cant get the help living at home. Shawn and I are very sad and wish we could change things for her but maybe this is for the best.
Shawns real mother , should I say his egg donor, is a real piece of work. She is trying to start stuff by messaging friends of ours to ask about him. And why on earth does she need to know what his ex wifes last name is. Why does she need to talk to her or look her up. I pray she is not getting some drama started with us. She has done enough already. She refuses to apoloigize to him or me for how she treated me and she keeps talking trash on me to him. I mean cmon leave us alone already and live your own life. Better yet keep it going and make it to where Shawn will really kick you out of our lives FOREVER! I dont want that person in my childs life ever.
Shawn has had a cat, Miguel , for thirteen years and we got the news the other day that he has cancer and will not live more than 3 months. Shawn is heartbroken and trying to cope with having to put his little buddy down once the time is right. I dont know what to do or say to make him feel better, but I think I am doing ok. He comes home from work in the mornings and cuddles Miguel for a while before coming to bed and this seems to help Shawn. However Miguel has no clue what is going on. The vet says he feels no pain.
I will be 6 months pregnant tomorrow and it makes me feel like this is going way too fast and it needs to slow down a bit. I want to enjoy being pregnant and buying all the fun little things and get used to being a mommy before the baby gets here. Plus the delivery scares me a bit. :)
Mom is in the hospital with bilateral pnuemonia. I hope she gets out by the weekend, but we will see if she gets any better. I am stressed for her because I know she is not making any money while she is in the hospital. I know is sucks for her, but it was the only way to make her better.
My little brother still has major issues he is dealing with. I am heartbroken and lost over his problems and want so bad to take him away from it all. I wish I would've done better for him and gave him a better life. I feel like this is my fault. Like I screwed up my life a ton and made some bad decisions and didnt get the chance to show him how to live a better life. Prayers are the only thing that can help him now.
My other little brother has supposedly gotten a girl knocked up, but noone really knows if she is really pregnant since she claimed to get pregnant after knowing my brother for a week. REALLY??? I think the whole situation is stupid and both children need to be knocked upside the head. He is now living with her and her parents and not going to school. GREAT!
The other brother is ok. He is slowly reaising his kid with his baby mama and living off my dad. I feel bad for my daddy. He is working his butt off just to pay for his wife that doesnt work and he has to pay for my brother baby mama and baby. What kind of life is that?
I want to be like supergirl and save the world. I will start with my family and get them out of all the sticky situations they are in. I just want better for the people I love and cant stand the fact that I cant change anything for any of them.
My husbands GMA is in the nursing home and will not be able to get out. She needs help living and cant get the help living at home. Shawn and I are very sad and wish we could change things for her but maybe this is for the best.
Shawns real mother , should I say his egg donor, is a real piece of work. She is trying to start stuff by messaging friends of ours to ask about him. And why on earth does she need to know what his ex wifes last name is. Why does she need to talk to her or look her up. I pray she is not getting some drama started with us. She has done enough already. She refuses to apoloigize to him or me for how she treated me and she keeps talking trash on me to him. I mean cmon leave us alone already and live your own life. Better yet keep it going and make it to where Shawn will really kick you out of our lives FOREVER! I dont want that person in my childs life ever.
Shawn has had a cat, Miguel , for thirteen years and we got the news the other day that he has cancer and will not live more than 3 months. Shawn is heartbroken and trying to cope with having to put his little buddy down once the time is right. I dont know what to do or say to make him feel better, but I think I am doing ok. He comes home from work in the mornings and cuddles Miguel for a while before coming to bed and this seems to help Shawn. However Miguel has no clue what is going on. The vet says he feels no pain.
I will be 6 months pregnant tomorrow and it makes me feel like this is going way too fast and it needs to slow down a bit. I want to enjoy being pregnant and buying all the fun little things and get used to being a mommy before the baby gets here. Plus the delivery scares me a bit. :)
Sunday, January 9, 2011
STRESSED and HEARTBROKEN
I am completely upset and heartbroken over recent events. I am lost and confused and angry. I cannot believe what happened and that I was lied to. I cannot believe that now we have to deal with this and my mother has to live with this.
I am not what will happen in the end but I just continue to pray that GOD will show the good to us. I am trying hard to not stress over this and just limit myself to the situation but I have anxiety issues and can get worked up pretty good. Sometimes I just start crying at the thought of it.
The doctor says to just focus on me and the baby because stress causes early labor. I feel like I have to be there for my family to lean on but at the same time I feel like I need to step away and take care of me.
I am praying that everything turns out good in the end and that one day everyone can put this all behind them.
I am not what will happen in the end but I just continue to pray that GOD will show the good to us. I am trying hard to not stress over this and just limit myself to the situation but I have anxiety issues and can get worked up pretty good. Sometimes I just start crying at the thought of it.
The doctor says to just focus on me and the baby because stress causes early labor. I feel like I have to be there for my family to lean on but at the same time I feel like I need to step away and take care of me.
I am praying that everything turns out good in the end and that one day everyone can put this all behind them.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
One of those days
Well it has been one of those pregnancy days. Where I cried most of the day and cant seem to get happy. We had to pay 100.00 to get our door fixed and he fixed it half way kinda. It feels like everytime we seem to get ahead, by paying off some debt, we just accure more debt.
My mom says she is not spending the new years with me anymore but she will gladly give me her son, I assume if I drive all the way up there and get him and then bring him back home. I think I'll just work.
Most of my clothes and shoes do not fit me . I mean I have maternity clothes , but sometimes I just wanna wear a hoodie and a tshirt. Most of my tshirts are really tight. Thanks to my wonderful husband I have 3 pairs of really comfy big soft pajama pants to wear around the house, why cant I just where these to work and out ?
I have to wear my white shoes to work bcuz they are the only ones that semi fit my feet and today one of my bosses got mad about them. I am supposed to wear black. Well I would go out and buy some shoes but it seems everytime I turn around we have to spend money on something else. (My truck needs new tires bad, they are bald... guess how much new tires for a dodge ram 1500 cost???). So I guess I am going to have to buy a cheap pair of shoes that are black just to wear to work. And I will have to buy the wide size and a bigger pair just to fit comfortably.
Anyway I love being pregnant just not liking all the side affects. I feel so fat and ugly and I cant do anything to change it becauze I have to eat to keep baby alive. I can barely walk around a mall let alone workout since I am always short of breath. And I dont get much sleep due to indigestion. I have indigestion and heartburn everyday all day and it stinks.
On top of all of this I am still freaking out about what we will need for baby and all the desicions to make. I think I have decided to just get a newborn carseat and figure out the brand later. I am going to check out a store to talk about cloth diapers but may end up just doing reg diapers. We have deccided to just get a new crib, since the one for free is a drop down one. I just dont want to take the chance. I still have to research vaccines and such and decide if we are going to do those and that darn epidural - do I or dont I?
I am still deciding if I will get stuff gender neutral, not so sure we will be ready for baby number 2 right away so carseat may not be reusable. But maybe we should get stroller and other things neutral because we could always reuse those.
Oh the joys of pregnancy.
My mom says she is not spending the new years with me anymore but she will gladly give me her son, I assume if I drive all the way up there and get him and then bring him back home. I think I'll just work.
Most of my clothes and shoes do not fit me . I mean I have maternity clothes , but sometimes I just wanna wear a hoodie and a tshirt. Most of my tshirts are really tight. Thanks to my wonderful husband I have 3 pairs of really comfy big soft pajama pants to wear around the house, why cant I just where these to work and out ?
I have to wear my white shoes to work bcuz they are the only ones that semi fit my feet and today one of my bosses got mad about them. I am supposed to wear black. Well I would go out and buy some shoes but it seems everytime I turn around we have to spend money on something else. (My truck needs new tires bad, they are bald... guess how much new tires for a dodge ram 1500 cost???). So I guess I am going to have to buy a cheap pair of shoes that are black just to wear to work. And I will have to buy the wide size and a bigger pair just to fit comfortably.
Anyway I love being pregnant just not liking all the side affects. I feel so fat and ugly and I cant do anything to change it becauze I have to eat to keep baby alive. I can barely walk around a mall let alone workout since I am always short of breath. And I dont get much sleep due to indigestion. I have indigestion and heartburn everyday all day and it stinks.
On top of all of this I am still freaking out about what we will need for baby and all the desicions to make. I think I have decided to just get a newborn carseat and figure out the brand later. I am going to check out a store to talk about cloth diapers but may end up just doing reg diapers. We have deccided to just get a new crib, since the one for free is a drop down one. I just dont want to take the chance. I still have to research vaccines and such and decide if we are going to do those and that darn epidural - do I or dont I?
I am still deciding if I will get stuff gender neutral, not so sure we will be ready for baby number 2 right away so carseat may not be reusable. But maybe we should get stroller and other things neutral because we could always reuse those.
Oh the joys of pregnancy.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Gender Party
We have decided to throw a gender party to let people know the sex of the baby. I won't even find out until the party. My husband already knows what we are having and he keeping his mouth zipped until the day. I a, so excited to have the party and find out in a fun interesting way.
My hubby is a professional clown and he puts on amazing shows. He can also make just about anything out of balloons. I hope he puts all the thought and effort he would into a show on our party. I want to remember the day forever and have a fun story to tell our baby.
We already have the names picked out and the nicknames, so we are all set. I cant wait to start calling my baby by its name. Right now we call it Minnow. My hubby likes to fish and I guess that is a type of baby fish?? Not really sure but the nickname works for now while we (I mean me)are waiting to find out.
I just wanna go out and start buying stuff, but if its a girl I want all pink stuff. I want the pink carseat and pink stroller and pink everything. If its a boy the colors can vary or we can do a noahs ark theme or something.
I will post as soon as I find out what we are having. Jenn
My hubby is a professional clown and he puts on amazing shows. He can also make just about anything out of balloons. I hope he puts all the thought and effort he would into a show on our party. I want to remember the day forever and have a fun story to tell our baby.
We already have the names picked out and the nicknames, so we are all set. I cant wait to start calling my baby by its name. Right now we call it Minnow. My hubby likes to fish and I guess that is a type of baby fish?? Not really sure but the nickname works for now while we (I mean me)are waiting to find out.
I just wanna go out and start buying stuff, but if its a girl I want all pink stuff. I want the pink carseat and pink stroller and pink everything. If its a boy the colors can vary or we can do a noahs ark theme or something.
I will post as soon as I find out what we are having. Jenn
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
20 Weeks
Well I am in my 20th week and Im pretty sure Im starting to feel little kicks and movements. I cant wait to have the baby kick my belly so my hubby can feel it.
I have had the hardest time being pregnant but I am enjoying watching my belly grow and knowing that there is a little one in there. We got our sonogram pictures done the other day and it made my heart sing to hear the heartbeat and see the heart pumping along. The baby was just moving away.
So far I have had the morning sickness, the night sickness, the afternoon sickness. Pretty much at any time I could get sick or just be completely fine. I have had nose bleeds and sinus infections , swollen sinuses, dry-itchy skin. My eyesight is coming and going (things just get fuzzy or out of focus). The heartburn is the worst, I have heartburn all the time. I eat tums like candy. I crave dark sodas, so I have to look for caffiene free pop everywhere I go. I notice it is getting harder to bend over to put on my shoes or socks or just fix my pant legs. Most clothes are very uncomfortable and pretty much no matter what I am doing I am uncomfortable.
I just keep thining that in a few short months I will have this precious baby in my arms and life will be totally perfect.
I have had the hardest time being pregnant but I am enjoying watching my belly grow and knowing that there is a little one in there. We got our sonogram pictures done the other day and it made my heart sing to hear the heartbeat and see the heart pumping along. The baby was just moving away.
So far I have had the morning sickness, the night sickness, the afternoon sickness. Pretty much at any time I could get sick or just be completely fine. I have had nose bleeds and sinus infections , swollen sinuses, dry-itchy skin. My eyesight is coming and going (things just get fuzzy or out of focus). The heartburn is the worst, I have heartburn all the time. I eat tums like candy. I crave dark sodas, so I have to look for caffiene free pop everywhere I go. I notice it is getting harder to bend over to put on my shoes or socks or just fix my pant legs. Most clothes are very uncomfortable and pretty much no matter what I am doing I am uncomfortable.
I just keep thining that in a few short months I will have this precious baby in my arms and life will be totally perfect.
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