Well I am just running through this pregnancy. I really thought it would go so much slower, but I guess through the stress of everything going on I am just not paying attention anymore.
Mom made it home finally, she is on a truckload full of medication and I need to get up to see her so that I can go over everything with her and get a medication list for medical personel.
Little brother is still in need of prayers, although I finally got to talk to him the other day and he sounded good. I miss him. I never thought I would actually say that.
Hubby and I had a date night last night, we went to our church for a marriage class (which we loved) and then out to eat at Zios. It was nice to go to the class, I met some other SAHM and found a group at the church for mommies. I cant wait to get to know some more ladies in this area.
In just over a week I will finally know the gender of my baby. I am so excited and cannot wait to go shopping. I will post as soon as I find out.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Im 6 Months!!!
I am finally 6 months along. I am so excited. I cannot wait to find out what I am having at the end of this month. I am so excited. In May I will have my little one in my arms and holding him/her tight. I am praying everything goes well and the baby is healthy.
I had a dream that I had a buy by c section at 26 weeks and he was 10 pounds with a head full of dark hair. I must have cried a lot in my dream bcuz I woke up sobbing. It was a wierd dream.
My mom is still in the hospital trying to get rid of her pneumonia and now she has diabetes and an irregular heartbeat. I am praying that she gets out soon and that she will be okay. I will have to make sure she stays on top of all her meds now.
My little brother is still going through his struggles and needs lots of prayer. I wish he didn't have to go through anything and I want so bad to make all things better for him. But this is all on him and he needs to find a way out. UGH!!!
So I am going to try to focus on my baby and my health and keep this little guy in there as long as possible. I am shooting for going over and delivering later than the 6th so that I can maybe finish up my semester. We will see.
I had a dream that I had a buy by c section at 26 weeks and he was 10 pounds with a head full of dark hair. I must have cried a lot in my dream bcuz I woke up sobbing. It was a wierd dream.
My mom is still in the hospital trying to get rid of her pneumonia and now she has diabetes and an irregular heartbeat. I am praying that she gets out soon and that she will be okay. I will have to make sure she stays on top of all her meds now.
My little brother is still going through his struggles and needs lots of prayer. I wish he didn't have to go through anything and I want so bad to make all things better for him. But this is all on him and he needs to find a way out. UGH!!!
So I am going to try to focus on my baby and my health and keep this little guy in there as long as possible. I am shooting for going over and delivering later than the 6th so that I can maybe finish up my semester. We will see.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
UPDATE
My party is coming pretty quick and I am so excited to find out the gender of my baby. I cannot wait any longer it needs to hurry up and get here. I love that I have that to look forward to. I am so glad we chose to do it this way. Shawn is very happy that he knows and that he gets to do this little party for me and our family and friends. I hope it all goes well and the party is a success for all.
Mom is in the hospital with bilateral pnuemonia. I hope she gets out by the weekend, but we will see if she gets any better. I am stressed for her because I know she is not making any money while she is in the hospital. I know is sucks for her, but it was the only way to make her better.
My little brother still has major issues he is dealing with. I am heartbroken and lost over his problems and want so bad to take him away from it all. I wish I would've done better for him and gave him a better life. I feel like this is my fault. Like I screwed up my life a ton and made some bad decisions and didnt get the chance to show him how to live a better life. Prayers are the only thing that can help him now.
My other little brother has supposedly gotten a girl knocked up, but noone really knows if she is really pregnant since she claimed to get pregnant after knowing my brother for a week. REALLY??? I think the whole situation is stupid and both children need to be knocked upside the head. He is now living with her and her parents and not going to school. GREAT!
The other brother is ok. He is slowly reaising his kid with his baby mama and living off my dad. I feel bad for my daddy. He is working his butt off just to pay for his wife that doesnt work and he has to pay for my brother baby mama and baby. What kind of life is that?
I want to be like supergirl and save the world. I will start with my family and get them out of all the sticky situations they are in. I just want better for the people I love and cant stand the fact that I cant change anything for any of them.
My husbands GMA is in the nursing home and will not be able to get out. She needs help living and cant get the help living at home. Shawn and I are very sad and wish we could change things for her but maybe this is for the best.
Shawns real mother , should I say his egg donor, is a real piece of work. She is trying to start stuff by messaging friends of ours to ask about him. And why on earth does she need to know what his ex wifes last name is. Why does she need to talk to her or look her up. I pray she is not getting some drama started with us. She has done enough already. She refuses to apoloigize to him or me for how she treated me and she keeps talking trash on me to him. I mean cmon leave us alone already and live your own life. Better yet keep it going and make it to where Shawn will really kick you out of our lives FOREVER! I dont want that person in my childs life ever.
Shawn has had a cat, Miguel , for thirteen years and we got the news the other day that he has cancer and will not live more than 3 months. Shawn is heartbroken and trying to cope with having to put his little buddy down once the time is right. I dont know what to do or say to make him feel better, but I think I am doing ok. He comes home from work in the mornings and cuddles Miguel for a while before coming to bed and this seems to help Shawn. However Miguel has no clue what is going on. The vet says he feels no pain.
I will be 6 months pregnant tomorrow and it makes me feel like this is going way too fast and it needs to slow down a bit. I want to enjoy being pregnant and buying all the fun little things and get used to being a mommy before the baby gets here. Plus the delivery scares me a bit. :)
Mom is in the hospital with bilateral pnuemonia. I hope she gets out by the weekend, but we will see if she gets any better. I am stressed for her because I know she is not making any money while she is in the hospital. I know is sucks for her, but it was the only way to make her better.
My little brother still has major issues he is dealing with. I am heartbroken and lost over his problems and want so bad to take him away from it all. I wish I would've done better for him and gave him a better life. I feel like this is my fault. Like I screwed up my life a ton and made some bad decisions and didnt get the chance to show him how to live a better life. Prayers are the only thing that can help him now.
My other little brother has supposedly gotten a girl knocked up, but noone really knows if she is really pregnant since she claimed to get pregnant after knowing my brother for a week. REALLY??? I think the whole situation is stupid and both children need to be knocked upside the head. He is now living with her and her parents and not going to school. GREAT!
The other brother is ok. He is slowly reaising his kid with his baby mama and living off my dad. I feel bad for my daddy. He is working his butt off just to pay for his wife that doesnt work and he has to pay for my brother baby mama and baby. What kind of life is that?
I want to be like supergirl and save the world. I will start with my family and get them out of all the sticky situations they are in. I just want better for the people I love and cant stand the fact that I cant change anything for any of them.
My husbands GMA is in the nursing home and will not be able to get out. She needs help living and cant get the help living at home. Shawn and I are very sad and wish we could change things for her but maybe this is for the best.
Shawns real mother , should I say his egg donor, is a real piece of work. She is trying to start stuff by messaging friends of ours to ask about him. And why on earth does she need to know what his ex wifes last name is. Why does she need to talk to her or look her up. I pray she is not getting some drama started with us. She has done enough already. She refuses to apoloigize to him or me for how she treated me and she keeps talking trash on me to him. I mean cmon leave us alone already and live your own life. Better yet keep it going and make it to where Shawn will really kick you out of our lives FOREVER! I dont want that person in my childs life ever.
Shawn has had a cat, Miguel , for thirteen years and we got the news the other day that he has cancer and will not live more than 3 months. Shawn is heartbroken and trying to cope with having to put his little buddy down once the time is right. I dont know what to do or say to make him feel better, but I think I am doing ok. He comes home from work in the mornings and cuddles Miguel for a while before coming to bed and this seems to help Shawn. However Miguel has no clue what is going on. The vet says he feels no pain.
I will be 6 months pregnant tomorrow and it makes me feel like this is going way too fast and it needs to slow down a bit. I want to enjoy being pregnant and buying all the fun little things and get used to being a mommy before the baby gets here. Plus the delivery scares me a bit. :)
Sunday, January 9, 2011
STRESSED and HEARTBROKEN
I am completely upset and heartbroken over recent events. I am lost and confused and angry. I cannot believe what happened and that I was lied to. I cannot believe that now we have to deal with this and my mother has to live with this.
I am not what will happen in the end but I just continue to pray that GOD will show the good to us. I am trying hard to not stress over this and just limit myself to the situation but I have anxiety issues and can get worked up pretty good. Sometimes I just start crying at the thought of it.
The doctor says to just focus on me and the baby because stress causes early labor. I feel like I have to be there for my family to lean on but at the same time I feel like I need to step away and take care of me.
I am praying that everything turns out good in the end and that one day everyone can put this all behind them.
I am not what will happen in the end but I just continue to pray that GOD will show the good to us. I am trying hard to not stress over this and just limit myself to the situation but I have anxiety issues and can get worked up pretty good. Sometimes I just start crying at the thought of it.
The doctor says to just focus on me and the baby because stress causes early labor. I feel like I have to be there for my family to lean on but at the same time I feel like I need to step away and take care of me.
I am praying that everything turns out good in the end and that one day everyone can put this all behind them.
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