I am at home with a hurt back, wearing old sweats and a hoodie. I only leave the house to go to the doctor. I can't walk or sit for long at all, and laying down starts to hurt after a while. The muscle relaxers barely take the edge off, and I do not have any more pain killers at all.
Dad calls me and says that he wants to take me for a ride, to throw on some clothes he will be here within minutes. I am confused but put some tennis shoes on and grab a coat. I walk out give dad a hug and he asks if I really love Shawn. I tell him yes and I am very confused. He then makes sure I have a picture phone. I am so confused. I get into the van, very uncomfortable due to my back, and we start heading down the road. Dad tells me that him and Shawn had lunch earlier and that I was going to get a proposal from him. I was shocked, I couldn't believe he was off work and wanted to ask me. TODAY of all days. I was a total mess my back hurt so bad and I still had to study for finals.
We get to the place and dad walks me to the gazebo as Shawn walks along with us. Shawn takes me by the hand and says a few words, then pulls out the ring and gets down on one knee. He asks I say yes and we get into the car, it was freezing.
I am happy we are engaged just a little upset at the way it was done. I wish dad would have asked me to get dressed a little nice, he could have said he was taking me to lunch. Maybe a day that my back didnt hurt would have been nice too. I literally looked like crap, I mean I don't even think I showered that day. I was walking crooked and in pain.
O well I can't have all my happy fairy tales can I ? Maybe I can make the wedding my special day, o wait everyone is sad and doesn't want me to do it my way. I always dreamed of a sunset wedding on the beach. Okay so I have not always wanted to marry someone, in fear of divorce. But a few years back I saw a few wedding pix of a girlfriends wedding and fell in love with the idea. But famliy all wants to be there and money is tight. I am pretty sure Shawn and I could save a ton of money if we both work tons of OT. Maybe my sissie could even get her hubby to save some money for her to go.
We will still have a reception here for everyone. WE can invite everyone we wanted to celebrate with us.
1 comment:
I am sorry this is so hard for you. You know we will support you if you really end up going to a beach, we will just miss it.
I know you said you would try to pay for me and my kids to go but mom would be heart broken if you paid for me and not her. Same for dad probably.
I say you and Shawn talk about it, save the money, and reassess later. You could always wait a bit to get married and have even more money saved up. Some people plan their wedding for a year to two long.
In the end, this is your day. You will have to live with it forever. I have a few regrets about my day. I have thought about redoing it but I am happy in my marriage. That day was just to put our names together but the marriage is what matters the most.
I love you tons!!
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