Update

Well I managed to talk to my hunny and all is well, after some very hard discussions. Luckily we made it through and the wedding is still on and he recognizes my need for space and I am learning to help him with his trust issues. I guess once you have been hurt those little thoughts never quite leave the back of your mind.

We have settled on Jamaica for a wedding and honeymoon. I am so very excited, we are leaving KC on Nov 7th, getting married on Nov 10th and returning to KC on Nov 16th. I cannot wait, and already I am making a list of what to bring in my head.

Now to settle on the reception... !!!UGH!!! I am pretty sure we are having to reception in OP KS or something like that and I think it will be the last weekend in November. We are still not sure on what we are going to serve, wether or not we will have a dj or jsut play some cds. I don't know if we will make invites or buy them, I don't even know who all will be invited. I am not even sure what time we will have it or exactly what day.
What I do know is...
We will roast a pig and most likely serve foods that will go with pig-YUCK!
We will do the dollar dance and father daughter dance YAY!
I hope to have a white chocolate fondue dip thing, not even sure where to go for that.
We will play our wedding during the reception for all to see, and hopefully we will get to show off more pix from our whole trip.

We do know that we will move into his house for a few short months and then rent or buy a place, hopefully his mom gives us that bigger bed (a twin is too small). Um!!! Well Im sure there is much more to think about, he will just add me to his insurance for cars and health. And I think we will continue to go to his church for now, ..... So much to think about and plan.....

I am so ready to get to Jamaica and be married already, but I am not ready to leave my sissies house. I love living there and I love seeing the kids all the time. I am very afraid he will limit my time with the kids to a small amount. I want to see them grow daily, I don't wanna be a monthly visitor I wanna be a daily or weekly visitor. I want them to come over for sleep overs, and movie nights.

Anyhow that is my update. O Im sure I could ramble on for even longer but I must get some sleep tonight...

PS any good marriage advice is accepted graciously
The number one key I keep hearing is communication and the ones that arent afraid of affending me tell me to keep GOD as number one and your marriage is sure to have a head start!