I cry and I cry and I cry and I have no idea why. Alone in my truck all the way home or to familys house I cry. At home alone while cooking dinner I cry. I get teary eyed at work and have to stop myself from crying, I wanna cry almost all the time.
Is married life or life changing supposed to make me so sad. Am I really sad because I am married, or because I just moved out of my comfort zone, or because I am 26 and still working just to pay bills. Am I sad that I have no life except work, am I sad that I am not in school or working towards a goal. Am I sad that I sleep with a man instead of cuddling with my precious princesses everynight.
Maybe this huge life change is taking its toll on me.. maybe I am finally realizing just how much of a loser I am. Maybe I am missing my princesses too much. Maybe I am realizing that to my family (well some members) I am a nobody that deserves no love or attention.
I guess I just dont know why I cry all the time but it feels so good to cry. It feels good to let it all out and be alone. I wish I knew why though.
2 comments:
Oh sweetie, I am sorry.
You are going through Sun Family withdrawal. You should have really weaned yourself off us more slowly. Guess I should have known. Once you spend enough time with my kids and me, you have to spend tons more and it is hard not to see us.
The magical cure pill? come see us at least 3 times a week. Call when about to cry to talk to sweet little voices for the in between short fixes.
In all seriousness, this does not seem normal. If you need to chat, I am here. Maybe a bit of one-on-one counseling would help you. Seek a church counselor or ask your PCP for advice. Good luck!
I am sorry you are as sad as me but I hope you feel better soon Jenn. I miss you but I am too busy to be sad. I really hope you will visit and call us mostly when I am at home.
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