Is it wrong to be jealous???

I want to be like those people at church... they perform on stage, they know each other well, they hang out with each other, their kids are friends...

I want to have that bond with other people, with other families and couples. I want to have bible study with other couples. I want to do coffee with other families and have that closeness with another woman that I see so much around me.

I want to do more for the LORD. I want to help out in the church and know everyone that attends my church. I want kids and parents to respect me and chat with me. I see so many people at Shoal Creek that fit into some click or another and I want that.

But I cant have that because I have to work every stupid weekend of my life. I cannot volunteer for anything anywhere because I have to work. I want to quit work and volunteer my life and time to the church and other foundations that help children.

I know, I know, I dont ever seem happy and satisfied... I am just wanting more and more and more. I feel like I am running in a circle and not getting very far. I want to move forward. I want to have a more fullfilled life, a more rewarding life.

Is it so wrong to be jealous of those people that seem to have all that I want and more. I am happy for them I just want that.