Monday, July 27, 2009

THE NEED TO BE SPECIAL

I grew up with a twin sister, 3 little brothers and a family with 5 kids that always hung out with us. I never felt that I got my special time with mom or dad or that I was ever given any individual attention. I always wanted to have more special me time with my parents but that never happened. I was grouped with my twin sister and my moms friends' 5 kids. I was always told to go play with the other kids, go clean with the other kids, go eat with the other kids. In school I was always compared to my twin and grouped with other kids.

I think I now have issues. Still when I chat with my parents I get interrupted by cell phones, grandkids, other kids, tv, computer. I still cannot get that special attention I want. I think I need counseling. LOL

If I want to talk with my mom alone and tell her about my life and wedding I have to take her out to dinner without anyone else and I still have to compete with the cell phone.

If I want to chat with my daddy on my own I have to take him and his family out to dinner and compete with all of them. Then it is all about him forever. UGH!!!

Am I a baby or crazy or something. I just wanna be special. I want you to pay attention to me when I talk and make me feel important (Act like you care about me and my life and focus on me for a minute without interruptions)

I am going to try my hardest to always make my kids feel individually special. I want them to grow up knowing that they are unique and special in their own way. I want to have mother/daughter and mother/son dates and have father/daughter and father/son dates also.

I love my alone time with my neices and nephew. I love being able to snuggle with just one and let them know they are my special little one.

1 comment:

Tina Michelle said...

Yes, you are odd. Yes, you need counseling. That is what our parents should have saved for, not college, counseling. Maybe we should start a fund for our kids now!

I just tell people to look at me, listen to me. you sometimes have to confiscate a phone to get what you want. I try, right??

I need to get a sitter so you and I can chat alone again. dress shopping alone with you that one day during nap was a blast even though we could not see a single dress!! LOL